Videbimus

It was one of those unclear days. Not the kind of unclear that the whole world seems to be living in lately. Not that. But – you know – the kind when fog descends so thickly that you might as well put on a helmet along with your jacket before you walk out the door because you’re bound to run into something sooner or later; unless, of course, you’re an animal with eyeshine. But I had to go to the grocery store. My cat, Videbimus, Wedee for short, hadn’t stopped yowling since early morning and wouldn’t just eat the can of tuna I’d offered earlier. I should’ve bought a dog. I hear they eat anything including crayons and socks. But Wedee was the leftover kitten from a friend’s cat and needed a home, so in a moment of I can’t believe what I just did, I said I’d take her. She was a cuddly thing and, as cats go, was pretty ordinary other than her propensity to bite me. Oh I know. Cats do that when they’re feeling affectionate. But when Wedee did it, it was more like she was completing a homework assignment. She’d saunter over to me after supper, jump up onto my lap, and start her evening ritual of tiny little bites; sometimes my arms, sometimes my legs or feet, and sometimes even my neck and head. Weird, I know, but by that time of day I’m usually a lump of tiredness, so she got away with it. Sometimes I wondered if she really did think it was her duty and if she would ever think she’d accomplished the homework she had assigned herself each evening. After she was done, she’d snuggle in as though she’d not just sent little cat saliva coursing through my veins. That was six years ago and since then Wedee had pretty much determined my schedule, including, apparently, grocery store runs in dense fog.

I was on my way back when a faint light shone in the distance. I couldn’t tell how near or far. It was just there. I slowed my car, thinking to avoid spending money I didn’t have at the auto shop. It suddenly burst so brightly on my windshield I cringed and slammed on the brakes, waiting for the crunching sound to come. It didn’t.

It was foolish, I know, but I pulled over and walked back to the approximate location of the light, now gone. Nothing. I walked in a zigzagging circle, but neither stumbled upon, heard, nor (of course) saw anything. I slid back into the car, pulled back onto the road as well as I could, and started for home. The fog had lifted slightly, though I passed a car that still crept along as though no one could see an inch in front of them. We could, but the driver must have been one of those extra careful types; the type of person who checks their locks twice and wears Vicks to bed rain or shine. Not that there’s anything wrong with that.

I hauled Wedee’s dinner into my crackerbox house, scooped out a serving which Wedee sniffed, then devoured like she’d been starved for a week, and I tugged off my jacket. Ugh. Something fell onto my arm. I seemed to have acquired a hitchhiker in the dewy fog. A little lightning bug spread its wings, then began to crawl. I shook it off, and it flew to a corner of the room.

After I’d made myself a huge tuna sandwich, I grabbed the TV remote, switched on the nightly news, and awaited Wedee to saunter over for her evening ritual. The news seemed more ridiculous than usual, and I shut it off and grabbed a book instead. And Wedee jumped up and snuggled. Not one bite. And the lightning bug settled down in the corner with a friendly glow.

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What Is

People use the word faith fairly often: “Keep the faith.” “Faith overcomes fear.” “Faith moves mountains.” “All the world is made of faith, and trust, and pixie dust.” “Faithless is he that says farewell when the road darkens.”

Allow me to add my own thoughts. Perhaps you can add yours, too.

Faith is not losing hope when hope seems lost, rather, it is something that lasts beyond our physical understanding.

It is not dependent upon seeing what is visible, but trusting what we do not see.

It is knowing in our spirit (despite what things look like) what IS.

Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

JM Barrie, Peter Pan; J.R.R. Tolkien, The Fellowship of the Ring; Hebrews 11:1

In the Middle of the Muddle

If you’ve ever moved, you know the indecision of having a lot to do and not knowing where to begin. Some of you feel this on a regular basis as you stare into space over your morning cup of coffee. We sympathize, but this isn’t that.

We’re moving, alright. The direction just isn’t terribly clear. Over the space of a year, we’ve been confronted with, well, with one confusing decision after another. Among family, friend, or foe we land on the same or opposing sides of these questions, with some of us standing in the middle, our hands over our mouths, turning one way, then another. It’s a nightmare for people who break into hives at even the thought of confrontation. We’re a motley crew, to be sure, and we don’t harmonize that well just now.

We experienced an explosive reaction about the death of a man who was detained in Minneapolis. Everyone has their own opinions about what happened, but we can agree that it started countrywide protests and destruction by two notable groups that continues to this day.

We then experienced what some said was an accident and some say was a bioweapon. Whatever it was, the narrative and reaction generated fear world-wide. Depending on a state’s governing bodies, too many lost their lives through sickness, suicide, or lack of human contact. Many small businesses – businesses run by everyday people who worked hard, sacrificed their money and time, and pursued their dreams – were driven to closure. States and nations encountered economic troubles as people lost jobs and a way to provide for themselves.

We faced an unusual Presidential election in which the frontrunner had a seemingly landslide-like lead, some states stopped counting votes late at night and the nation found that in the morning election results had flipped to opposite of what they had been. This last and most recent trouble has led many to believe our free country has fallen to communism through a color revolution.

Fact and rumor are being tossed around like the flying monkeys in the Wizard of Oz and they’re just as scary. We face a flood of information the truthfulness of which is difficult to determine. Some people say Q was a psyop to lull people into complacency, others believe it was a military op to wake people up. More recently, some people are claiming our nation’s history includes the Act of 1871 which should peel the skin off your teeth if you believe it. If you’ve read Agenda 2021 from those darling people who meet at Davos, you’ve already found a cave in the middle of nowhere and measured it for drapes.

And in the middle of all this are the people who say we’re so close to the rapture, you’d better have the “What to do if you miss the rapture” letter sitting out where some unfortunate soul can see it if you twinkling of an eye out of here. You think I’m kidding? You’ll find it in the citations below.

I am hopeful that things are not what they seem just now. I am hopeful that righteous people are doing everything possible to oust communism from our dear country. I have planted my flag and I stand. Even so, should my fervent hope materialize, it is only a matter of time until the unspoken horrors we have been exposed to will come to pass. When they do, the world might not call it The Great Tribulation, but that’s what it will be.

I’ve learned that what I thought was the world being sifted a few years ago was nothing compared to the overdrive sifting we’re witnessing now. Seriously. It’s like being in a food processor where you’d like to stay your happy carrot self, but the cook thinks you’ll be more useful shredded. It’s the kind of sifting that asks not only, “Do you have faith?” but “Do you have faith absent physical proof? In the face of seeming physical proof to the contrary?” This sifting seeks to examine whether we live out our Christian declarations in the face of much controversy and trouble. We can no longer read the Bible and chuckle at the people who couldn’t see prophecy happening right in front of their noses. We no longer have the luxury of taking anything we’ve enjoyed all our lives for granted. We cannot afford to stand in the middle of this mess (especially where our relationship with Jesus is concerned). We have to research and we have to pray and we have to choose.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mötley_Crüe ; election fraud:https://www.dailysignal.com/2020/11/03/us-election-fraud-is-real-and-its-impact-is-being-ignored/; https://cnsnews.com/commentary/hans-von-spakovsky/heres-what-election-fraud-deniers-dont-want-you-know; color revolution: https://www.conservativedailynews.com/2020/09/what-is-a-color-revolution/ ; O,: qanon.pub ; Act of 1871: https://americannationalmilitia.com/the-organic-act-of-1871-with-notes/ ; annavonreitz.com/actof1871pdf ; Agenda 2021: https://www.breitbart.com/politics/2020/12/21/world-economic-forum-digital-davos-2021-to-reveal-great-reset-initiative/ ; https://www.charismanews.com/opinion/64002-what-to-do-if-you-miss-the-rapture; Revelation 6: https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Revelation%206&version=KJV

II Chronicles 15:2

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The Salt and Light Perspective

Salt can make things taste good, but it can also make your dog throw up. And, frankly, any kind of meat doesn’t taste that great (to me) without seasoning of some sort. Maybe that’s why some people don’t like vegetables. They don’t put salt on them. I confess I put garlic salt, tumeric, and olive oil on my salad. Though salting a salad seems counterproductive, it’s not against the law. Yet.

Living in an area where snow and ice aren’t uncommon, I don’t rejoice like people in Texas did this week when I see those little flakes falling. But I am grateful if I see sand or salt being scattered on the roads and sidewalks, because I know then that I’m less likely to slip and fall, crash, or end up in the ditch.

If you’ve ever had a bright light shined smack in your face, you know that it doesn’t help you see. It blinds you. If the person holding the light is a police officer, that blinding light helps you understand that you’re not in charge just then. But if you’re walking somewhere dark, you are very grateful for even a little bit of light. You don’t feel as vulnerable as you did before it appeared. Unless, I suppose, you believe in UFOs.

Salt has a lot of uses. Some people are glad for salt, but maybe, for some, it makes them want to throw up. Light is usually welcome, but not always. And I’m thinking just now that it doesn’t matter how it’s received; only that it’s there. It isn’t meant to be restricted to one thing or area, but every single area. The world, in fact.

This last paragraph is directed to Christians. We sometimes fall into the trap of thinking our faith needs to be present in some places, but stay away from certain areas: Like pornography or trafficking or politics. The world is the world and everything in it. God put us in charge. He uses us in the world and everything in it because that is His intention. He intervenes sometimes, but He doesn’t expect us to stay out of the fray. And if we do and pat ourselves on the back for it, I believe He’ll be shining a blinding light in our faces very soon.

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Typing Lessons

Some of you might be amused to learn and some of you remember that there was a high school class called “Typing”. This was back in the day when we learned about the Cold War and wondered how people in communist countries could actually believe what Pravda was selling them. We couldn’t visualize the struggle of nations under the thumb of tyrannical governments. We wondered if it had always been that way or how it became so. We struggled with the picture of empty churches but for a few old women listening to government-approved sermons. We wondered how in the world citizens would accept such a life.

We sat at typewriters with white paper in each cylinder and typed to the cadence of our typing teacher’s voice. F F F space J J J space F space J space F J F J and so on.

We typed sentences that used all of the letters on the keyboard. One such sentence was “The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog.” Not terribly inspiring, I grant you, but helpful in learning where the letters on the keyboard are.

There was another such sentence. This one was inspiring, though we didn’t pay much attention to it at the time. “Now is the time for all good men to come to the aid of their country.”

It’s time to pay attention to it now.

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The Strip Search of 2020

I was originally going to entitle this post “The Gifts of 2020”, but then I just – didn’t. I would’ve, mind you, twenty years ago. Or ten. Or maybe even five. But not now. Speaking gratefulness into dark times is the right thing to do, but it’s not the only thing.

I was thinking of lessons learned over the past nine or so months (strangely the amount of time it takes from the little blue line to birth pangs). Even five years ago we were praying II Chronicles 7:14, keeping our eyes open for forgiven sin and healed land. By now we have that thing memorized forwards and backwards, and have moved from uncertain voices decreeing and declaring for evil to be crushed and righteousness to rise, to fasting and praying and calling for demonic strongholds to be broken. We have begun to understand the intense spiritual battle we are unwittingly a part of and the pervasive deception Satan spreads.

Some people got mad and said they were tired of “thoughts and prayers”. Maybe God is, too. Maybe He’s looking for something more. Not in place of, but more.

This year has been akin to a strip search. The onion has been peeled. First we repented for our nation of its many and varied sins, but it wasn’t enough. So we looked at our churches and were dismayed to more deeply realize our careless leadership and undisciplined holiness. But it wasn’t enough. And it was there that we began to see our true nature, a nature that needed an amazing amount of renovation. CH Spurgeon said, If any man could see his own heart as it is by nature, he would be driven mad: the sight of our disease is not to be borne unless we also see the remedy. We began to open our eyes.

We discovered Proverbs was right. Our speech really can kill or give life, and the consequences of either lie at our doorstep. If you don’t believe me, have a gander at social media. Better yet, consider the lives lost from governors’ orders and big pharma and medical organizations’ changing claims.

We found, to our surprise and demise, that fear is a national epidemic. It wasn’t just you worrying about one thing or another. (Are you just a little relieved you’re not the only one rehearsing catastrophes in your imagination?) It was everyone! We couldn’t seem to get past worrying about our health or someone else’s health. Fear was the heavy chain we wore night and day.

During times of introspection, we realized the toxic blend of selfishness, self-centeredness, arrogance, laziness, cowardice (is seeking anonymity a form of cowardice?), immobilized faith – oh I could go on all day, but you get my drift – that we’ve allowed to fester in who we actually thought was a pretty good person. Ourselves!

God was waiting for us to get there. Well here we are. Stripped bare. We’ve got nothing. Not one thing to show for our blessed lives. Laodicea has nothing on us.

And here is the place, yes, this is the part where we look around our diseased existence and discover the way out. Our true power begins with faith in Jesus. Not the little stuff of small prayers uttered while we’re distracted with something else, but the big stuff of struggle and tears and crying out to God. We manifest what we say and believe. If fear, well, we’ve seen how that’s worked out. But if faith, my friends, oh, if faith there’s a glorious ending to all of this! Not right away. But through. Take courage! Maybe terrible, horrible, no good, very bad 2020 really was a gift.

“If my people who are called by my Name will humble themselves and pray and seek My face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.” II Chronicles 7:14; Many and varied sins of the USA: abortion, unfaithful relationships, fornication and adultery, sexual perversions, gossip, lies, pornography, pedophilia, corrupt dealings, etc. “Although they know God’s righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them.” Romans 1:32; “Life and death are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruit.” Prov. 18:21; “You say, ‘I am rich; I have acquired wealth and do not need a thing.’ But you do not realize that you are wretched, pitiful, poor, blind and naked.” Revelation 3:17 Images: NathanDumlaoforUnsplash; AaronBurdenforUnsplash; ZacDurantforUnsplash; ToaHeftibaforUnsplash; Phrase: Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good Very Bad Day by Judith Viorst, 1972.

Footprints

The church was dark except for a battery-powered candle someone had accidentally  left on. It was Christmas Eve, a night when church congregants left their various entertainments and present-opening and buffet tables and came as one to celebrate the holy birth every year. But not this year. This one was online with more music, more varied backdrops, and the comfort of a laptop and a couch. And less, she thought. Less intensity, tenderness, and prayer.

It was nearing midnight when, on impulse, she’d driven the empty streets alone to the dark church for a service of one. Her footfalls resonated a barely audible sound on the carpeted aisle, and the air – the air had that familiar indefinable scent and sense that is part of churches everywhere who welcome Jesus. She often thought you could sense if the Holy Spirit was welcome in a church the minute you crossed the threshold.

Sitting at the piano, she allowed her fingers to play up and down the keyboard. Pretty notes evolved into a few hymns, then Christmas carols, and one last song. Silent Night. They had sung it together every year as candles held by hands young and old lit the room one by one. She missed it. She swallowed hard, and began to play in the darkness.

Wait. What was that? She stopped mid-song and listened hard. A slight sound. She frowned, then rose from the bench and squinted, peering down the darkened aisle. Footprints? Not possible. The sound was barely a whisper, but she could hear them! She closed her eyes and listened as they lined the sanctuary. Such a thing should bring fear, but all she felt was inexplicable warmth.

Opening her eyes, she heard her own intake of breath as bright starlight quietly began to flood through the church doors and windows, lighting the room more brightly than any candlelight service ever had. She shook her head in disbelief. And yet. And yet this was a night for faith. And miracles.

And she slowly settled onto the bench once again to play the carol as heaven’s stars and silent voices of congregants from years’ past joined together in a poignant Silent Night.

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Christmas From Another View

“Wow! Oh wow oh wow oh wow!”

“I know. It’s magnificent, isn’t it?”

“Not in my wildest dreams could I have ever imagined . . .”

“No, nor in your waking hours either. Christmas celebrations on this side of the veil are amazing!”

They momentarily glanced below, then she knelt and peered into a particular room with great interest.

“During the tribulation, after the rapture, that is; my auntie has been doing the best she can. Look at her,” Cecile pointed.            

The woman below rocked herself back and forth as she sat on the floor. She had found a place to live – she wasn’t allowed to own anything now – but she was glad for shelter and a little food.

“She used to love the Christmas movies on TV – you know the love stories,” Cecile commented affectionately.

Her companion nodded.

“She loved the sparkle and glam of Christmas. But,” Cecile continued thoughtfully, “she didn’t have much time for the main thing. The real thing. I once asked her why. Oh, I know. It was rather smart-mouthed of me. She was offended, of course. She scolded me and told me I should go to the concert at her church. Maybe I’d learn a thing or two. The music was . . . I think she described it as ‘heavenly’.”

The companions smiled in amusement.

“Funny. She scoffed at the simple account when we were together, but now . . . now it looks like there might be a chance. I saw her get this on the black market.”

An open Bible rested before the woman as she read and re-read some passages. She closed her eyes, but a pained expression remained.

“It’s so hard to let go of old paths. Come on, Auntie. You can do it.”

“You can do it,” the two companions shouted together.

The woman frowned and looked over her shoulder as though she’d heard something. A thoughtful expression flitted across her face and she turned back to the book in front of her.

Her niece returned alone later to see her aunt asleep on the floor. Her austere surroundings were so different than years past. Maybe, thought Cecile, they were closer to the first Christmas. Just maybe her dear auntie would see a little more clearly the baby in the manger.

An instantaneous flash of light shone from the old book’s pages, but only for a moment. The woman’s sleeping expression grew softer, and Cecile repeated an oft’ prayed request. Perhaps tonight.

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The Cabin on Buck Creek

It had been, oh, how long? More years than he cared to think about. Life had taken him away from familiar places and people into a world they and he knew nothing of. It was a world of tall buildings and bridges, masses of people and multi-course meals.

He had faced      a steep learning curve; one that had kept him stimulated and focused during most of his waking hours and dreaming of fenestration, tartan grids, and plans during his sleep. It was only a few years ago that his engagement had slowed, then slowed some more until what were once challenges were now no more than mundane tasks. His schedule was so dependable, he could set a Times Square clock by it. Coffee at 6:00. Stepping over the threshold of his office by 7:00. A working lunch at his desk or a quick walk to clear the cobwebs at noon. Home by 7:00 and repeat ad infinitum. His restlessness increased.

One day he looked up from his work, past the steel and glass outside his windows, and acknowledged to himself that something had taken the place of the former puzzles floating through his consciousness and had instead filled his dreams with increased yearning. He couldn’t quite believe it, but it had grown until its undeniability filled the room.

So it was that he found himself back in a familiar place, now slightly changed. There was no decent road in. It was a place only off-road vehicles could manage, and even then, the trees blocked most paths. He scuffed through dried leaves on the track to the shaded snowpack near his Grandpa’s old place. Little animals scurried to hide. The cold walk filled his lungs with crisp, fresh air. He dug his hands into his coat pockets, and the vapor from his breath increased with the distance. He used to pretend it was pipe smoke when he was 5. He wanted to be like his Grandpa. And God. For somewhere in his little boy imagination his Grandpa was pretty near as close to God as anyone. He wouldn’t have been surprised if God smoked a pipe.

He’d spent every summer of his boyhood in the sturdy three room log cabin filling his days chasing frogs, swimming in the creek, and climbing trees. And every other winter, he’d been allowed to spend his Christmas vacation from school with his Grandpa. The crunch, crunch, crunch underfoot stopped as he pulled the key from his coat pocket and unlocked old, forgotten memories.

For a few hours he swept and scrubbed dirt from neglected surfaces. He started a fire in the fieldstone fireplace, then sank down in the chair his Grandpa had favored. His mind wandered back to evenings by the firelight and wisdom the world he had come from couldn’t touch. He closed his eyes and wished – oh how he wished . . .

A sigh escaped his lips. So many years. Had he chosen the right path or was the simpler one his Grandfather had taken the better one? Was money, hobnobbing, and status the best reward? After all, they had their merits. Were those years he could have had – of rewards from physical labor and homey leisure – now lost? Probably.

He recalled the last Christmas he had joined his Grandpa at the cabin. His parents had died within a year of each other, and he hadn’t wanted to bear the season alone. But his Grandpa was stubborn about one thing. That cabin. He never left it. Something about his lost dog returning, though it never did. He claimed he always wanted it to know where to find him. And they had spent a wonderful week together. That was before his choices. Before the city. Before.

He hadn’t come here to sulk. He grabbed an axe – the one that was always in the corner by the door – and walked out to find a tree. It was just the right size, and when he had decorated it with pinecones and berries, it was perfect.

He sat in the dark, firelight and shadow playing over the walls and floor, and he prayed. He prayed for forgiveness of false equivalencies and shallow goals. And he prayed for a miracle. Right here. On Christmas Eve. He didn’t want a fancy dinner nor a Tesla nor even a house in the Hamptons. No, tonight he made a different choice. He wished for one more talk with his Grandpa who so reminded him of the Good Lord, Himself.

And the sweet scent of pipe smoke filled the room.

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