It’s Memorial Day, So Remember

It’s curious how we can have a national holiday we call Memorial Day, the very name which tells us we’re remembering, and promptly forget what it’s for. In the town in which I grew up every Memorial Day the band would play Abide With Me at the bandshell in Chautauqua Park. There would be an address, a plane would fly over the lake and drop a wreath, and someone would read a poem. As a young girl, I was more interested in buying a candy necklace from the candy truck parked there than thinking about people I721px-Poppies_again_5_(5781808652) commons.widimedia.org didn’t know or war or sacrifice. I didn’t appreciate a poem about poppies and marking our place. I began to listen more closely when I was a senior in high school. Now every Memorial Day, I think of that poem, and in my heart recite as much as I recall. The poem, In Flanders Fields, was written in 1915. It’s good to remember poems. It’s better to remember people who sacrificed their lives for our country. On Monday, go ahead and cook out, but don’t forget. Remember.

In Flanders Fields

In Flanders fields the poppies blow                                                                            Between the crosses, row on row,                                                                                   That mark our place; and in the sky                                                                                   The larks, still bravely singing, fly                                                                                 Scarce heard amid the guns below.

We are the Dead. Short days ago                                                                                       We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,                                                                            Loved and were loved, and now we lie                                                                                 In Flanders fields.

Take up our quarrel with the foe:                                                                                           To you from failing hands we throw                                                                                    The torch; be yours to hold it high.                                                                                         If ye break faith with us who die                                                                                          We shall not sleep, though poppies grow                                                                             In Flanders fields.

In Flanders Fields, John McCrae, 1915, public domain;                                           Photo: www.commons.wikimedia.org Creative Commons Attribution 4.0 International License

The Problem With Facebook

If you’re looking for an essay about how Facebook leads to people feeling poorly about their lives because everyone else’s life looks beautiful, look elsewhere. If you’re expecting a commentary on how Facebook leads to self-absorption, self-congratulation, and self-everything else – well, maybe you can write that one yourself. However, if you’re just a bit curious about one person’s (my) ongoing saga with all things technical, read on.

I recently announced that I have a publishing contract, having kept that news to myself for a couple of months. Knowing that people in this business want you to have an online presence, I have gradually set up mine. This wouldn’t be my choice otherwise. I like my privacy, and I prefer to regret what I say in public in private and pray that others will soon forget any gaffes. To have that option taken away is alarming. God help us all.

I am on Linked In and Pinterest (a few in my family were slightly embarrassed I pinned long dresses “for the Sunday School Ball”) and have more than one email account. Don’t get the wrong idea. I can learn computer-ese. I just don’t love it. Every time I’ve begun something new on the computer it’s led to holding my head in my hands and sometimes pacing. I know many of you readers are in wonder about someone who feels this way. Maybe you are a techie by nature or maybe by nurture, but please have mercy on those who are neither.

Enter Facebook. It was time. I followed the directions. Then people started asking me to be their friend. I was adrift. I didn’t really know these people that well. A few I didn’t know at all, but knew through someone. I couldn’t have a dialogue about this with my husband who has a Facebook, but refuses to have any friends. At all. The conversations between my children and myself led me to grudgingly conclude I was overthinking it and I shouldn’t take it quite so much to heart. To top it off now I need a separate Facebook page for my book. I added the word ‘author’ after my name on this page, because to use my name without a title as I preferred would lead to confusion about just who was involved, me or . . . me. You’re welcome. This is all a preface to the following conversation. I will not name names.

1: “Is what I post on my author page also on my personal page?”

2: Looking at me and blinking

1: “I’m afraid if I post on my author page it will be bothering people on my personal page. I don’t want to clutter things up.”

2: “If you post as an author it’s on your author page and if you post as you it’s on your page.”

1: “But I posted as an author and it showed up on my personal page!”

2: “Because you liked your author page.”

1: Unconvinced and wishing it would all. Just. Go. Away.

1: “And then what if I post and delete because it got posted wrong, then post again. I posted the same thing 3 times today because the picture didn’t post with it. What if it showed up 3 times on everybody’s whatever they call it – timeline or whatever it is?”

2: “If you delete it it’s deleted.”

1: LIES!  “But then why do people write the little asterisk and change a word in their comment rather than just retyping it correctly?”

2: Puzzled look.

1: “You know, how people say – like – ‘he’s a good boy’ – then they change it because they typed the wrong thing and have *girl?”

2: Puzzled look continues.

1: “If someone puts something on there and then they comment again with a correction of a word?”

2: “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

3: Entering from another room having been frustrated by overhearing the conversation and knowing from the past it won’t go away. “She means when people have a typo.”

2: “They just do that to change a letter or word rather than retyping it.”

1: mother voice “You mean they’re too lazy to delete it and retype it correctly?”

2: Half-nod

1: Look of alarm and disbelief

2: Hesitant yet slightly amused laughter

1: “I can’t believe that. I thought it was because it would show up twice: once incorrectly and once corrected.”

1: What is WRONG with people?! It’s not like they’re in a hurry – they’re on Facebook, for Pete’s sake! 2: She needs to let it go – lapses into silent song of same name.

Pondering silence

3 calls 2 to look at something on the computer (or maybe as a rescue effort). 1 turns on the T.V. because Castle will be on any minute and she wants to escape the current turmoil.

Please know that if I fail to respond to you on my author page or don’t respond to a request on my blog, it is probably because I haven’t yet figured out how to do so and have been working for quite a while to find something, anything that will point me in the right direction. Hey! Like me on Facebook! Tell your friends! I’ll respond. Whether you’ll get my response is anyone’s guess.

I’M HAPPY

Just because you’re late to the party, doesn’t mean you can’t enjoy it.

Growing up, I just naturally wrote poetry, like some people like to tinker with things or others like to cook or draw. I’d put my poems on tag board and tack it to the wall or write in a little notebook or on scraps of paper. All eventually were lost or thrown away, though a few are still in my memory. When I had children, I’d make up stories for them. Those stories got told and retold. Eventually, I wrote some of them down. Much later, in my 40’s, I started writing novel-length stories.

I eventually began submitting book proposals and got some form letters and other encouraging, lovely rejection letters. It’s neither lovely nor encouraging being rejected. Then I would just give up for a while, but I kept writing. There are many good stories in this world that never get published.

I recently submitted a book again and had two publishing houses still considering my book when I was offered a publishing contract by a third publisher.

I’m pleased, so pleased to announce that my contemporary fiction novel will be released on August 3, 2015!

I am learning things about marketing and technology that are more than a little daunting to me, but I’m hopeful I’ll get over it. If you’d like to do a book review (it never hurts to start thinking ahead), let me know. I will keep you updated about this new journey either on my Facebook Author page or here on my blog. In fact – and let’s put this in the ‘you’re never done being surprised’ column – Like me on Facebook! 🙂 I invite you to join me in this journey. Soli Deo Gloria. Get HAPPY!!!

P.S. Go ahead and clap, snap, or dance. No one’s watching. Most of our dreams are awaiting heaven’s arrival to take shape, but you have here and now to think about some crazy dream you’d like to chase. Dreams are crazy only to those who don’t share them.

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Reel

How it caught his eye, he didn’t know. He bent down and picked it up. It was a misshapen stone about 2 inches in diameter. It was the dark gray of river rock, but on one side silver, red, and blue stripes ran up and down along its surface. He turned it over; but no, it was just the one side where the stripes covered the otherwise dark gray. He put it in his pocket and looked at the sky.

The sun would be setting within the hour, he guessed. The air was already becoming that tempered color of dusk, a subtle dimming of light and warmth. The day’s brightnessgoodfreephotos.com13 had gradually left and with it the cheeriness that sunshine brings. He’d been on the river for two hours doing more strolling and thinking than fishing. It was good out here, away from the pressures of committees and expectations and people needing him. Out here it was the way everything should be; slightly rugged and sparkling and colorful. Out here it was real.

The mayflies would be swarming soon. Trout would race toward them, flashing their colorful God-given Joseph coat and splashing in their leap to catch the flies. Then fishing could begin in earnest.

He cast out. It was a good one. He would have a trout or two or more to take home and show off and fry up. There it was! The familiar tug; the fight for life at one end and for food and satisfaction at the other. He pulled and played with the fish until it was close enough to net. With a practiced hand he unhooked his fish. Just as the splash of the trout sprayed him, he heard it.

The leaves of a bush rustle in a variety of ways. A spring breeze only slightly moves leaves in a playful whisper. The wind that stirs before a storm is faster. It’s urgent, a warning. This was neither. It was the sound of someone approaching. But, no. Not someone. The sound was too brash, too heavy.

He spotted it then, the dark brown coat, the swaying posture. The bear looked at him across the river that was suddenly more narrow than a minute before. Snout to the air, it sniffed. There was no way to remove the fish scent that touched his waders and permeated his hands. If he threw the fish to the bear it would be a short time before the bear came closer for more. Slowly he let the fish slip from his hand back to its home in the river.

Fishing was over for the night. He would give the other fisher extra room by his absence. He moved quietly and as quickly as he dared, making his way back to his truck, back to the people who needed him. That was real, too, after all.

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Letters From Camp (conclusion)

Her hands shook a little as she tore open the envelope. She hadn’t expected a letter at all and had only hoped she wouldn’t get a phone call from someone in charge telling her to come and get Chase early. But here it was. And there was his signature.

Dear Grandma,

Thank you for making me go to camp. I’m sorry for that thing I said before I left. Everyone is really nice and I have a couple of guys I hang around with.

At first I was mad and wanted to make trouble and I did. I blamed another kid and we both ended up being talked to. The group leader who talked to us is actually pretty cool. We talk sometimes.

I love everything here. The food is great, especially the lunches. The cook is kind of cute. Don’t tell anyone I said that.

Canteen is fun. Rec is great – I’m awesome. Classes and vespers are really good. Fireside is my favorite.

We drew a target on that one boy’s leg and tried to hit the bull’s eye with spit balls while he was sleeping. He never knew! It was really funny!

I actually read the Bible you sent with me sometimes. I’m going to keep on doing that when I get back. At least I’m going to try.

I know I don’t say it, so I’ll say it now. I love you, Grandma. Thank you for taking care of me.

Your Boy, Chase

Letters From Camp (continued 1)

She knew her Kaylee would come through. That girl never missed a beat. Homework? Always exact and on time. Bedroom? Neat as a pin. Clothes? Perfectly matched. Sure enough, here was her letter. She ripped open the envelope addressed with hearts and curly cues and began to read.

Dear Mom,

It’s great here! I’ve made a lot of friends. I have to tell you (drumroll) I think I’m in love!  enwikipedia.org heartIt’s the life guard. He called everyone out of the water and came just to see me on the campgrounds. Can you believe it?! What a sweet thing to do! 🙂

Some of the kids say it’s because I left my swimming buddy without telling anyone. Of course they’re saying that. They’re jealous.

We sing at the top of our voices every single day. It as noisy as gym class, only better. The Dean walks around smiling all the time. Somebody said he might put in earplugs sometimes. That’s just what I heard, though.

enwikipedia.org heartI asked the cook for some cookies to pass out in my cabin before we went to bed one night, but before she could give them to me (and I know she would have), my cabin mom came and told me she didn’t want crumbs all over the cabin. Something about chipmunks and what not. So what? Those cute little things would’ve loved a crumb here or there. 🙂

Well, I’ve gotta go. One of the kids got in trouble and another friend got involved . . . oh, who knows. Don’t worry. I wasn’t me!

xx oo xoxo,

enwikipedia.org heartKaylee

PS Don’t believe everything Jessica’s mother tells you.

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Letters From Camp

Finally! He opened the letter with a pocket knife. It would be great to hear at last from his son who had been away at camp for a very long week. No one could ask for a better boy than his son. Brown hair, green eyes, a zest for living; oh how he love his boy! His smile was so wide his face hurt as he unfolded the paper and began to read the boyish scrawl.

Dear Dad,

First of all, it wasn’t my fault. Please believe me. Not everyone does. Whew! Glad I got that out of the way.

The food is okay. Breakfast is best, then supper. Me and some of my friends told the cook that lunch could use a little work. I mean it’s only three meals a day. It’s not like science homework, for Pete’s sake. She pressed her lips together and her eye started twitching. I think maybe she needs one of those massages they advertise on t.v.

My favorite part of the day is swimming. The lifeguard seems pretty uptight. It could be from that one girl that they couldn’t find during the buddy check. He should get over it, though. She just wanted to leave before her friend. Like I said, uptight, right?

By the way, I have a mark on my leg that reminds me of the Target sign. My pants cover it up, though, so no worries.

Love, Dixon

His smile had faded with every passing word.

“Honey!” he called to his wife as he hunted for some paper to pen a quick reply.

to be continued. . .

On This Dark Night

Frozen citizens of winter past;                                                                                               A nation’s pain in annexed fright;                                                                                      Each life in history’s long march                                                                                          All come to One on this dark night.

On this dark night. On this night we remember what Christ has done for us. We remember His bravery, His courage, His sacrifice. We remember our sin. We remember the cross. Jesus loved life. He showed it in many encounters and countless ways. No doubt He played games with his friends while he was growing up. He appreciated a great meal and a good night’s sleep.

He laughed with little children and held them on His lap.

He didn’t want people to suffer: to suffer with sickness or pain or demon possession or hypocrisy or hunger. Or death. He healed many of them.

He encouraged those around Him to have faith – even a little unwavering faith. He taught thousands of people about what God is like and what the kingdom of heaven is like and what honoring the heavenly Father looks like.

And because He loved life, He lived it in such a way that there was nothing hidden, no deceit, no political correctness, no schmoozing. He was just Himself. He always spoke the truth, even when it offended someone. He had rich friends and He had poor friends. And He had enemies who didn’t like Him.   Jesus loved life. He experienced a lot of rejection and a lot of sorrow. But He still lived. And loved.Pixabay cc cross-78000_640

And here we are. And it’s Good Friday. Jesus loved life. He didn’t want to die. But He did. For you.

 

 

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Road Trip (conclusion)

Before we knew what was happening, she had us outside chopping wood. Using an ax goodfreephotos.com8was new to all of us except Sam. We had blisters in no time, and started regretting Sam’s turn into the barely visible driveway hidden to all but those who knew it was there. I heard Nigel gasp, and spun around to see Sam’s grandma swinging his ax like a seasoned lumberjack. Who knew the old lady could even pick up one of those things? We turned, zombie-like, to look at the wood pile, and at that moment it dawned on us how it had gotten there. Woa. Sam’s grandma handed the ax back to Nigel and told him it might help if he pulled up his pants.

“Lesson two. Keep private things private so you can get to what needs to be done,” she muttered as she started walking into the cabin.

“It’s chilly,” she called, “Hot cocoa for whoever wants it when you’re done.”

Well we all dropped our axes right then and there and started for the house. She was waiting for us at the screen door.

“When you’re done,” she repeated, pointing to the uncut logs and tools on the ground.

We turned around and spent the rest of the evening chopping. We actually got the hang of it and by the time we were done, we were not just ready for cocoa. We were ready for bed. It was 9:00.

What we had initially thought would be a quick stop for Sam to say hi to his grandma turned into a week. She always came up with a reason we needed to stay one more day. Instead of drinking beer and seeing things our mothers never intended for our young eyes to see, we ended up doing odd jobs around Sam’s grandma’s property; things like turning over dirt for a garden and planting seeds so small we lost half of them who knows where, and learning how to make lemonade with actual lemons, and how to shoot a gun and field dress a deer. Sam’s grandma had us take turns reading Shakespeare and Frost and Thoreau and Lewis to her after dinner while the rest of us listened as we stared into the fire. What school had never done for me, Sam’s grandma did, for it was then that I think I really began to love reading and thinking, both. We fell into bed every night by 9:00 and she woke us up with the prickly side of a broom at dawn. She especially liked whapping Nigel. After a couple of days he began to think it was as funny as she did.

That last night there we sat in the dancing light of logs chopped long before, maybe goodfreephotos.com9years before we had arrived. Sam walked over to her and told her spring break would be over in two days and we had to get back home. She reached up on her tiptoes and placed her cheek gently next to his.

“I know. Your mother called and told me.”

We did a double take.

“Grandma, when did you ever have a phone?” Sam asked, looking around.

His grandma motioned to me and led me over to a closet.

“Fred, would you be so kind as to open this door for me?”

I pulled the surprisingly heavy door open, and inside there was a little room, complete with a desk on which sat a cell phone and computer.

After a couple of silent minutes, Trent stuttered, “Wha . . .?”

Our thoughts exactly.

“Lesson ten: change is a fact of life,” she said quietly.

We were quiet the morning we were to leave. I couldn’t smile even when Sam’s grandma laid into Nigel with the broom. It felt like we were going from heaven to purgatory. The week had been filled with lessons like listening to nature clears your thoughts; and one that closely followed it, how are you ever gonna hear God if you’re listening to loud music; and one especially for Nigel, sleeping in makes you stupid; and animals trust people with kind hearts.

Sam’s grandma packed a lunch for us to take back with us and gave each of us a bear hug that nearly took our breath away. Last was Sam, and she hugged him for a long time while they swayed together in the clearing. Then she swatted his backside and he got in the car.

Leaning out the window he said, “Lesson eleven: Listen to your grandma.”

What a road trip: sixty miles and a world away. She smiled and waved as we pulled out of the barely visible driveway hidden to all but those who knew it was there.

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Road Trip (continued 1)

The faint squeak of an old rocking chair caught our collective attention and only then did we see her. Her wrinkled skin reminded me of ruts in a neglected road, but it was soft and the color of honey and glowed like there was a light underneath that we didn’t see. Her not quite five foot stature was slightly stooped, but her step was sure as she rose and lightly stepped off the porch to greet us.

“Grandma,” said our driver, Sam.

“Sam, you rascal,” she replied, hugging him tightly. “And these are your friends.”

“Nigel, Trent, and T-ball.”

She hugged us each, and when she got to me she said, “I don’t know any woman who likes sports quite that much. What’s your given name?”

“Frederick Kellen the third,” I said quietly, my face growing hot.

The others chuckled as they did every time I answered that question which, fortunately for me, wasn’t often anymore.

“A fine name, Fred. I’ll show you all around, but first let’s get refreshed.”

She seemed happier than any eighty-nine year old I’d ever met, not that I’d met many of them.

Just as we were settling around the sparsely furnished cabin to the digest pork sandwiches, home-made sweet potato chips, and sweet tea she’d fed us, Sam’s grandma untied her apron and clapped her hands. We looked up. In the space of time it had taken for us to wander to our chairs and put our feet up; in the short time that we had taken to crack a few jokes and examine the rudely-made furniture; in the time we’d used to watch her fill the kitchen sink from a pump right next to it, she’d cleared the table, washed the dishes, and put everything else away.

“Lesson one: you’re lazy,” she laughed at the verbal dig.

We didn’t know whether to laugh or leave, but Sam didn’t seem disturbed by it, and he was our driver. We were stuck here whether we liked it or not until he decided to go. The road trip had been a group idea, one we’d dreamed up around the table at the school cafeteria, one that had grown from midnight texts and Facebook messages and senior year convictions about how we would live our lives without the restrictions of fathers’ advice or mothers’ apron strings or any other stupid restraints. Sam had always been the one who took our ideas and made them happen, though, and he had taken the lead in finding a route and planning things boys our age should get a taste of; things we needed to know about the world like strip clubs and beer and who knew what else. We were going to be men’s men. Nobody would mess with us by the time we went off to college or wherever it was we ended up. We were ready for it all. Well, maybe not all. We had no idea what to think of Sam’s grandma.

to be continued . . .